Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Making sense of it all

In the loss of Matt and Chris many people have struggled with the 'why' question including myself. I think eventually we all realise that we can't really ever know. I do believe though that even if 'why?' doesn't get answered in the unfolding of time God makes more sense of things we don't understand.

God speaks to me often in pictures. I have seen one picture a few times and used it in ministering to others who are wanting God to show them what will happen. I saw a painting but it was covered up. Gradually part of it was revealed, then a bit more and so on. God seemed to be showing me that we can only see part of the picture of what we need to do or where we need to go. He can't trust us with the whole. So things do make sense but over time.

At the age of 12 my brother died in a freak hanging accident. I wasn't born then but lived with the pain my mum felt for most of my young life. My earliest memories include trips to the cemetery to put flowers down. He was often spoken of. It all could have seemed so senseless. Yet it was this incident that took my mother to church, this led to both her and me coming to Christ on the same day. Once Christ came in the graveyard visits ended. My father eventually came to Christ just before he died. I would never have been born if this tragedy hadn't happened. That single grain of wheat produced so much fruit. Could God have done it any other way? Apparently not.

I still don't have the why answer to my brothers death. I would have loved to have had a brother. All I know is out of it so much came that otherwise would not have happened.

3 comments:

English Blogger (Davie B) said...

Making sense of it, yeah, I know there is wisdom in God, but sometimes I would like to know a little of that wisdom, I know I don't have the right to ask. I guess that's why I some of us are angry and why we are finding it hard to come to terms with what has happened. We just don't understand why?

teapot said...

There is no answer to the why? Even as we ask it.
It was an accident, and we have to come to terms with that.

When you ask "Why" there is silence from God.

Here are some verses from Lamentations which I have read recently.

"When life is heavy and hard to take, go off by yourself. Enter the silence. Bow in prayer. Don't ask questions: Wait for HOPE to appear. Don't run from trouble. Take it FULL -FACE.
The worst is never the worst.

Why?
Because the Master won't ever walk out and fail to return. If he works severely, he also works tenderly.
His stockpiles of love are IMMENSE."

Lamentations 3 28-31 THe Message

Go to God and complain, but also let Him enfold you in His love.He is there, He is real, He is tangible, just as He has been there for countless others who suffer.

Enter into the silence and find Him, when it hurts like hell. As it frequently does.

Reindeer said...

Hmm still no posts!! How boring :-P